Tuesday, April 24, 2012





Really?


I mean really?

*smacks head*

To wake up is one thing... to wake up without cable is a pure 'other.

Because a douche did not do his job, Im sitting here in silence... sorta. (Netflix is your friend..LOL)


Done pulled the Queen bitch card this morning and went off on people in the wrong... That was interesting.

Im tired. Not sleepy, but tired of being a rug for my children. They are grown, I gave them all
the info they need to survive as grown ups. I completed the course. What they do with it is completely
up to them... why is that easier to say then to believe?

I am officially no longer a junkie.. and thats an huge change.. I was a junkie because my
physicians thought it was the right thing to do for the last 6+ years... Now I can see all
of the time I have lost. Frustrating? terribly... but am I going to let this get me
into a funk that the narcotics did? Hell no. My time to live.

I still have my days where everything hurts and I dont wanna do anything.. but my Atypical
personality has become unburried, she is waking up saying, "who slipped me a micky?"

I missed her.

I dont want to count my proverbial chickens and say Im better, but I can say.. I am GETTING better
by pure might and a bit of bud when the pain is unbearable. I can handle that.
Naps....not needed nearly as often. Sleep, not as elusive but just as interupted as before.
Energy... a shitton more, mental sharpness...... well its not as blurry, but most of all I can actually
remember things! I can go to the store and not just stand there like an ameba~! I know what Im
there for!

I think everyone around me is in shock when they see me back to the person I use to be..I like
seeing it throw them off.... remember...........ALWAYS mess with there heads, it keeps them younge..LOL

ok Nuff for now...  I hear the dryer calling me.