Really?


I mean really?

*smacks head*

To wake up is one thing... to wake up without cable is a pure 'other.

Because a douche did not do his job, Im sitting here in silence... sorta. (Netflix is your friend..LOL)


Done pulled the Queen bitch card this morning and went off on people in the wrong... That was interesting.

Im tired. Not sleepy, but tired of being a rug for my children. They are grown, I gave them all
the info they need to survive as grown ups. I completed the course. What they do with it is completely
up to them... why is that easier to say then to believe?

I am officially no longer a junkie.. and thats an huge change.. I was a junkie because my
physicians thought it was the right thing to do for the last 6+ years... Now I can see all
of the time I have lost. Frustrating? terribly... but am I going to let this get me
into a funk that the narcotics did? Hell no. My time to live.

I still have my days where everything hurts and I dont wanna do anything.. but my Atypical
personality has become unburried, she is waking up saying, "who slipped me a micky?"

I missed her.

I dont want to count my proverbial chickens and say Im better, but I can say.. I am GETTING better
by pure might and a bit of bud when the pain is unbearable. I can handle that.
Naps....not needed nearly as often. Sleep, not as elusive but just as interupted as before.
Energy... a shitton more, mental sharpness...... well its not as blurry, but most of all I can actually
remember things! I can go to the store and not just stand there like an ameba~! I know what Im
there for!

I think everyone around me is in shock when they see me back to the person I use to be..I like
seeing it throw them off.... remember...........ALWAYS mess with there heads, it keeps them younge..LOL

ok Nuff for now...  I hear the dryer calling me.

Dec 17, 2011

So much has happened since I talked to you last.. But I only have the energy to type out the worst!
My hub (keep in mind never really had anything wrong with him) started with excruciating pain on Oct 1st ..
We took him into the er and they made him wait 4.5 hrs before even seeing him, took him to the back and ran tests and said the Gallbladder has to go... so 2 days later they take him into surgery.....  Success. .. .. ..
Comes home... to recoup and the pain comes back 100X worse... goes back to the hospital and for the longest time they have no clue... pumping him full of Dilaudid and Vicodens and still no Idea why he is having intense liver pain.... They ran 3 genetic tests and they came back Negative... So the next step is a liver biopsy at Iowa City VA hospital after he sees the VA dr here in town on the 31st.  They are leaning toward cirrhosis at 40.  *sigh*  So hub is off of work indefinately I cant work and no other income coming in but everything either going out or is gone....  I just want to give up give in and get the hell off of this ride!  Sorry to sound like Im venting.. but Im venting and need to.... *sigh* Thanks for listening.... Ill update soon...

My new word for the week!

metaphysical (ˌmɛtəˈfɪzɪk ə l)
— adj
1.	relating to or concerned with metaphysics
2.	(of a statement or theory) having the form of an empiricalhypothesis, but in fact immune from empirical testing andtherefore (in the view of the logical positivists) literallymeaningless
3.	(popularly) abstract, abstruse, or unduly theoretical
4.	incorporeal; supernatural

My new word for the week!

sur·vive

   [ser-vahyv] Show IPA verb, -vived, -viv·ing.

verb (used without object)

1.

to remain alive after the death of someone, the cessation ofsomething, or the occurrence of some event; continue tolive: Few survived after the holocaust.

2.

to remain or continue in existence or use: Ancient farmingmethods still survive in the Middle East.

3.

to get along or remain healthy, happy, and unaffected inspite of some occurrence:

June 23 2011

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My new word for the week!

tol·er·ance

   [tol-er-uhns] Show IPA

–noun

1.

a fair, objective, and permissive attitude toward those whoseopinions, practices, race, religion, nationality, etc., differfrom one's own; freedom from bigotry.

2.

a fair, objective, and permissive attitude toward opinions andpractices that differ from one's own.

3.

interest in and concern for ideas, opinions, practices, etc.,foreign to one's own; a liberal, undogmatic viewpoint.